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Careers ruined or at risk from accusations of sexual misconduct
And you know what? Speaking about it is hard because you have to relive it over and over again when you want to just bury it, disassociate and hide. But it eats you away inside. And when you tell it feels like actual pain. The reliving it over again. I tried therapy, i had to drop out as i wanted to commit suicide rather than open up to someone face to face. So how the hell is one supposed to have documentation and proof when it is so hard to come out about it and we get so much hate when we come out and on top of that when one at the time was too busy being abused.
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(01-23-2019, 10:16 PM)taramarie Wrote: Oh hell and seeing some of these comments probably some guys here wont believe either. So basically i was ...we will say fiddled with till i was bleeding and yes i was penetrated painfully...i was 5 years old. My mother stormed the school about it. I was cornered into a cubical in the girls toilets, locked in there, beaten up, fiddled with and threatened for months till my mother noticed the injuried and the bleeding from trauma there. So yes. That is the definition of repeated sexual abuse. I am not one of those making things up. Since age 5 i have had cptsd and it causes me to have panic attacks where i freeze, stop breathing and i black out. A few years ago i was forcefully raped repetitively too. Neither i can give "documentation" for. I was alone both times locked somewhere and its hard to provide proof when one is locked in somewhere alone and being violated and silenced out of fear. As my attackers have said, worse will come if you say anything. As a child that worse did come and it hurt.

Wow!  I'm sorry you had to experience any of this.  You're brave to share it here.  Here's hoping for better in the future.  Any form of PTSD is hard to manage, but the complex variant is the worst.
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(01-23-2019, 10:21 PM)taramarie Wrote: And you know what? Speaking about it is hard because you have to relive it over and over again when you want to just bury it, disassociate and hide. But it eats you away inside. And when you tell it feels like actual pain. The reliving it over again. I tried therapy, i had to drop out as i wanted to commit suicide rather than open up to someone face to face. So how the hell is one supposed to have documentation and proof when it is so hard to come out about it and we get so much hate when we come out and on top of that when one at the time was too busy being abused.

The practices of medicine and the law often collide, and neither seems capable of seeing the other's point.  Yours is a prime example.
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It's sad Neil deGrasse Tyson mistreated women. I enjoyed his idea of the cosmic perspective, but it didn't make him better. He doesn't practise what he preaches. But I still love the Cosmos series, and look forward to watching new episodes in spring.
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(01-24-2019, 10:30 AM)David Horn Wrote:
(01-23-2019, 10:16 PM)taramarie Wrote: Oh hell and seeing some of these comments probably some guys here wont believe either. So basically i was ...we will say fiddled with till i was bleeding and yes i was penetrated painfully...i was 5 years old. My mother stormed the school about it. I was cornered into a cubical in the girls toilets, locked in there, beaten up, fiddled with and threatened for months till my mother noticed the injuried and the bleeding from trauma there. So yes. That is the definition of repeated sexual abuse. I am not one of those making things up. Since age 5 i have had cptsd and it causes me to have panic attacks where i freeze, stop breathing and i black out. A few years ago i was forcefully raped repetitively too. Neither i can give "documentation" for. I was alone both times locked somewhere and its hard to provide proof when one is locked in somewhere alone and being violated and silenced out of fear. As my attackers have said, worse will come if you say anything. As a child that worse did come and it hurt.

Wow!  I'm sorry you had to experience any of this.  You're brave to share it here.  Here's hoping for better in the future.  Any form of PTSD is hard to manage, but the complex variant is the worst.

My boyfriend also went through traumatic sexual abuse. From a family member actually. For years. It has hurt him in all ways. We have been suggested by his therapist to go into tantric counselling together as it was mental and physical abuse we went through so we should experience the opposite of that, hence...tantra. But also to explore the psychological and make peace with it. So, tantra can help with that balance of the whole. We will be seeing if it is right for us first.
So hopefully there is a better future but we know that we are healing already as we bond so well already.
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(01-24-2019, 04:52 PM)taramarie Wrote:
(01-24-2019, 10:30 AM)David Horn Wrote:
(01-23-2019, 10:16 PM)taramarie Wrote: Oh hell and seeing some of these comments probably some guys here wont believe either. So basically i was ...we will say fiddled with till i was bleeding and yes i was penetrated painfully...i was 5 years old. My mother stormed the school about it. I was cornered into a cubical in the girls toilets, locked in there, beaten up, fiddled with and threatened for months till my mother noticed the injuried and the bleeding from trauma there. So yes. That is the definition of repeated sexual abuse. I am not one of those making things up. Since age 5 i have had cptsd and it causes me to have panic attacks where i freeze, stop breathing and i black out. A few years ago i was forcefully raped repetitively too. Neither i can give "documentation" for. I was alone both times locked somewhere and its hard to provide proof when one is locked in somewhere alone and being violated and silenced out of fear. As my attackers have said, worse will come if you say anything. As a child that worse did come and it hurt.

Wow!  I'm sorry you had to experience any of this.  You're brave to share it here.  Here's hoping for better in the future.  Any form of PTSD is hard to manage, but the complex variant is the worst.

My boyfriend also went through traumatic sexual abuse. From a family member actually. For years. It has hurt him in all ways. We have been suggested by his therapist to go into tantric counselling together as it was mental and physical abuse we went through so we should experience the opposite of that, hence...tantra. But also to explore the psychological and make peace with it. So, tantra can help with that balance of the whole. We will be seeing if it is right for us first.
So hopefully there is a better future but we know that we are healing already as we bond so well already.

Best of luck to you both.
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Nassim Taleb is right: Today, any taxi driver has a safer job than a politician. Some sexual misconduct, and the career's over for the latter.
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Here's something to bring a bit of much needed humour to this forum. But still kinda relevent to this topic. Kinda haha! Big Grin


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