01-24-2019, 10:30 AM
(01-23-2019, 10:16 PM)taramarie Wrote: Oh hell and seeing some of these comments probably some guys here wont believe either. So basically i was ...we will say fiddled with till i was bleeding and yes i was penetrated painfully...i was 5 years old. My mother stormed the school about it. I was cornered into a cubical in the girls toilets, locked in there, beaten up, fiddled with and threatened for months till my mother noticed the injuried and the bleeding from trauma there. So yes. That is the definition of repeated sexual abuse. I am not one of those making things up. Since age 5 i have had cptsd and it causes me to have panic attacks where i freeze, stop breathing and i black out. A few years ago i was forcefully raped repetitively too. Neither i can give "documentation" for. I was alone both times locked somewhere and its hard to provide proof when one is locked in somewhere alone and being violated and silenced out of fear. As my attackers have said, worse will come if you say anything. As a child that worse did come and it hurt.
Wow! I'm sorry you had to experience any of this. You're brave to share it here. Here's hoping for better in the future. Any form of PTSD is hard to manage, but the complex variant is the worst.
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