08-24-2017, 11:11 AM
(08-24-2017, 12:14 AM)Kinser79 Wrote: @PBR
I'm not going to respond to your long screed. Mostly because it is as boring as it is unhinged. As usual you used your same tired ten talking points. I'm starting to question if you might not actually have a spectrum disorder. I suggest undergoing some tests for it and getting a real diagnosis. You know, the kind you'd get going to a real psychologist and not just talking to a social worker for ten or so minutes.
I went to a psychologist when I had a psychological problem (grief-related depression) with no connection to the autistic spectrum. Everything (except substance abuse, which is not one of my problems) had gone wrong in my life, and few people cope with that well.
Asperger's is considered part of the autistic spectrum. I show many of the symptoms, some of them physical. I do not cope well with loud noises, so I could never enjoy rock-and-roll as normal people do. I have trouble with stairs. I have great difficulty in understanding body language and other forms of non-verbal communication. The dog is better at that than I am.
I was bullied frequently as a child, which is commonplace for people with Asperger's. I have had difficulty getting and holding jobs (ineptitude in understanding non-verbal communications) and was never good at dating. My capacity for expression of humor is best described as either sarcastic or sardonic. The comedy that I can get is either physical comedy (Charlie Chaplin, Harold Lloyd, Orvilie and Hardy, Lucille Ball) or perhaps sardonic (the sort of humor that Alfred Hitchcock offers in The Trouble with Harry). Maybe something wise and witty. Vile stuff from the late Sam Kinison? Turn it off!
People have told me that I am 'high-functioning', but that appearance results from my suppression of the more objectionable features of autistic behavior. I must act to seem normal enough that my lapses are mere 'eccentricity'. I wish that I needed not be such a conformist as I am. For me, life is acting. I would rather be normal; as much as I act in real life, and I think I am good enough at it that were it not for Asperger's I would be able to make a living in Little Theater.
Maybe had I known much earlier I would have gotten better vocational guidance. I could have gotten some protection in accordance with the Americans with Disabilities Act. I have a high-enough IQ to be a potential trouble-maker in many milieux.
The one thing good about Asperger's (aside from it not being as bad as other disorders) is that it makes one unlikely to develop any chemical dependency.
The ideal subject of totalitarian rule is not the convinced Nazi or the dedicated Communist but instead the people for whom the distinction between fact and fiction, true and false, no longer exists -- Hannah Arendt.