I checked myself into the clinic for depression... I will get diagnosis most likely on the autism-Asperger syndrome.
I entered adulthood at the worst possible time for anyone with any weakness in America... about as the merciless 3T began. Nobody accommodated me and I had to pretend that I was normal enough in a brutal economic order.
I realize that I have some strong talents, but American society thoroughly wasted them. Oh, I was a shifty and dishonest person because I couldn't maintain good eye contact? Excellent verbal, mathematical, and spatial aptitude... and even good sensitivity toward color and light... wasted. I did get to do a decade and a half of substitute teaching, which is better than most opportunities around here (farm labor, retail, food service)... so I can't complain about it all.
One question I got was in essence "What the Hell are you doing in this community?"
...It's a good thing that I didn't get held over for the night. I doubt that with all my self-0righteousness about alcoholism and illegal drugs that I would have gotten along with boozers and druggies. Yes, one can get messed up without having a substance problem, gross dishonesty, or a proclivity toward sexual misconduct. I might have found my car vandalized if I didn't first get beaten up.
I entered adulthood at the worst possible time for anyone with any weakness in America... about as the merciless 3T began. Nobody accommodated me and I had to pretend that I was normal enough in a brutal economic order.
I realize that I have some strong talents, but American society thoroughly wasted them. Oh, I was a shifty and dishonest person because I couldn't maintain good eye contact? Excellent verbal, mathematical, and spatial aptitude... and even good sensitivity toward color and light... wasted. I did get to do a decade and a half of substitute teaching, which is better than most opportunities around here (farm labor, retail, food service)... so I can't complain about it all.
One question I got was in essence "What the Hell are you doing in this community?"
...It's a good thing that I didn't get held over for the night. I doubt that with all my self-0righteousness about alcoholism and illegal drugs that I would have gotten along with boozers and druggies. Yes, one can get messed up without having a substance problem, gross dishonesty, or a proclivity toward sexual misconduct. I might have found my car vandalized if I didn't first get beaten up.
The ideal subject of totalitarian rule is not the convinced Nazi or the dedicated Communist but instead the people for whom the distinction between fact and fiction, true and false, no longer exists -- Hannah Arendt.