08-11-2016, 01:33 AM
It is high-functioning autism. The therapist asked me what I want to do about it, and I replied, "I want to get away with it!"
At my age my core personality is unlikely to change. Maybe I can shed some personally-harmful behaviors. Those aren't the obvious ones that get one of the diagnoses of dangerous tendencies.
I will never become one of those servile types who does a hob that one loathes and smiles through it. That is as unlikely as getting me to love sheer noise. Yes, I love music -- but I could never enjoy a rock concert. It's just too loud!
So I can treat some of my oddities as quirks; nobody is perfect. Most creative and imaginative people are somewhat weird; they simply get away with it. And, yes, get away from a gloomy place that practically mandates an unhealthy way of life.
At my age my core personality is unlikely to change. Maybe I can shed some personally-harmful behaviors. Those aren't the obvious ones that get one of the diagnoses of dangerous tendencies.
I will never become one of those servile types who does a hob that one loathes and smiles through it. That is as unlikely as getting me to love sheer noise. Yes, I love music -- but I could never enjoy a rock concert. It's just too loud!
So I can treat some of my oddities as quirks; nobody is perfect. Most creative and imaginative people are somewhat weird; they simply get away with it. And, yes, get away from a gloomy place that practically mandates an unhealthy way of life.
The ideal subject of totalitarian rule is not the convinced Nazi or the dedicated Communist but instead the people for whom the distinction between fact and fiction, true and false, no longer exists -- Hannah Arendt.